Smiff
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(warning: if you don't know or care who i am, please skip this, but otherwise there's some stuff i want to say publicly). if someone else did this i'd be the first to complain of feeling sick...
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true (not very good) story .
well this really made my sunday, or week, or some longer time, to see there's been a v1.6 release. i was looking this afternoon for an n64 emulator for my little brother to play Smash Brothers and thought, hmm i remember one
but it seemed too sad to use something that wasn't pj64 (don't misunderstand, e.g. the 1964 guys - if they're still around? - and their work is just as worthy of respect; i just mean to me it's a reminder of my failing with PJ64). i felt it was partly my fault it hadn't been updated. well i did, i did f*** it up. i can't apologise enough, especially to the team. i'll come back to this in a sec.
the new release. haven't tried it yet but from the pics some of this stuff i remember playing with, before i dissappeared. it was sad, i thought no one would get to see or even know that we'd done more work on it. you know the project64 style was never to brag (much) about what was coming. but that doesn't mean seeing peoples' reactions wasn't a thrill btw very much i was nervous of getting that off other peoples' talents, but it was a setup that worked for us for a long time, and as long as zilmar and jabo could afford the time, it didn't need to end. it looks like they have managed to find some time, and i'm thrilled about that.
as i said, i was going away for a few months. i got thinking about how much time i'd used up on pj64 and it scared me. i thought: if i went back, even just to say hi, i'd see what was going on, and i'd be unable to resist doing little things, and then i'd want to be bossing people around again trying to get another release). frankly, working on pj64, even in my limited way, is more fun, in a deep satisfying way - yes ok ok its only a stupid emulator - than most things in my life. (yes, crocodile tears) and then maybe another two years would have gone. so, i felt so bad about not coming back, and that got worse as time went on, i did the selfish/moronic thing & tried to push the whole topic outta my mind.
seeing this release perversely is what's got me out of this rut. thank you! let me get "deep 'n' personal" for a moment. that period of my life, from before PJ v1.0 to 1.4 never quite felt real anyway, not because it was bad, but because it was so good, so detached from physical world, and i was with such a perfect (or close as) group of people. yeah, that sounds soppy, but behind the names you see on this forum are genuinely some of the nicest people i've ever (virtually) met. anyway, it's great to see that you guys are made of stronger stuff than i and you've made another good one by the look of it!
i don't know if i want any more involvement, or if you want me back. i don't think what i was doing was that important anyway. zilmar and jabo are the indespensible ones, to me, what they did was largely magic. but if someone could msg me & let me know how to contact the team that would be great... you still on the same irc channel?! it looks like most of the regulars (Gent! Radeon! everyone else!) are still around, so good to see. but also, makes me feel even more of a shit, forgive me. i have been around on other parts of the 'net, not doing much, you've probably seen me and thought it was a different Smiff. only once have i gone on an emulation site under a different name. oh so pathetic. no excuse.
i really can't help anyway right now, i've been well away from emulation, literally afraid to look at what's happening for 2 years. (in a Mario accent) I Know Nothing. i'm thrilled to be downloading the new PJ64 that you've done without me. if i can just find those er games. god forbid i find a bug in it! . hmm that was in bad taste i know. you guys... well as someone (no doubt also a very bright boy) said in the 1.6 feedback thread: i love you guys (but i'm not gay).
P.S. i've been watching a lot of Spongebob Squarepants while i should have been working on PJ64/updating my website.
P.P.S my brother will be happy because he'll be allowed to play smash brothers again
:blush:
true (not very good) story .
well this really made my sunday, or week, or some longer time, to see there's been a v1.6 release. i was looking this afternoon for an n64 emulator for my little brother to play Smash Brothers and thought, hmm i remember one
but it seemed too sad to use something that wasn't pj64 (don't misunderstand, e.g. the 1964 guys - if they're still around? - and their work is just as worthy of respect; i just mean to me it's a reminder of my failing with PJ64). i felt it was partly my fault it hadn't been updated. well i did, i did f*** it up. i can't apologise enough, especially to the team. i'll come back to this in a sec.the new release. haven't tried it yet but from the pics some of this stuff i remember playing with, before i dissappeared. it was sad, i thought no one would get to see or even know that we'd done more work on it. you know the project64 style was never to brag (much
) about what was coming. but that doesn't mean seeing peoples' reactions wasn't a thrill btw very much i was nervous of getting that off other peoples' talents, but it was a setup that worked for us for a long time, and as long as zilmar and jabo could afford the time, it didn't need to end. it looks like they have managed to find some time, and i'm thrilled about that.as i said, i was going away for a few months. i got thinking about how much time i'd used up on pj64 and it scared me. i thought: if i went back, even just to say hi, i'd see what was going on, and i'd be unable to resist doing little things, and then i'd want to be bossing people around again trying to get another release
). frankly, working on pj64, even in my limited way, is more fun, in a deep satisfying way - yes ok ok its only a stupid emulator - than most things in my life. (yes, crocodile tears) and then maybe another two years would have gone. so, i felt so bad about not coming back, and that got worse as time went on, i did the selfish/moronic thing & tried to push the whole topic outta my mind.seeing this release perversely is what's got me out of this rut. thank you! let me get "deep 'n' personal" for a moment. that period of my life, from before PJ v1.0 to 1.4 never quite felt real anyway, not because it was bad, but because it was so good, so detached from physical world, and i was with such a perfect (or close as) group of people. yeah, that sounds soppy, but behind the names you see on this forum are genuinely some of the nicest people i've ever (virtually) met. anyway, it's great to see that you guys are made of stronger stuff than i and you've made another good one by the look of it!
i don't know if i want any more involvement, or if you want me back. i don't think what i was doing was that important anyway. zilmar and jabo are the indespensible ones, to me, what they did was largely magic. but if someone could msg me & let me know how to contact the team that would be great... you still on the same irc channel?! it looks like most of the regulars (Gent! Radeon! everyone else!) are still around, so good to see. but also, makes me feel even more of a shit, forgive me. i have been around on other parts of the 'net, not doing much, you've probably seen me and thought it was a different Smiff. only once have i gone on an emulation site under a different name. oh so pathetic. no excuse.
i really can't help anyway right now, i've been well away from emulation, literally afraid to look at what's happening for 2 years. (in a Mario accent) I Know Nothing. i'm thrilled to be downloading the new PJ64 that you've done without me. if i can just find those er games. god forbid i find a bug in it!
. hmm that was in bad taste i know. you guys... well as someone (no doubt also a very bright boy) said in the 1.6 feedback thread: i love you guys (but i'm not gay).P.S. i've been watching a lot of Spongebob Squarepants while i should have been working on PJ64/updating my website.
P.P.S my brother will be happy because he'll be allowed to play smash brothers again
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